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CALVARIA FELL: An Interview with authors Kaaron Warren and Cat Sparks!

I have admired Kaaron Warren and Cat Sparks as writers for years, so when I got the opportunity to interview them for this blog, I jumped at the chance! Their new book, Calvaria Fell, is a collection of short fiction (and one novella) presents a deliciously dark future, filled with invasive plastic, faux paradises, abandoned malls, spy networks tucked amongst citizen enclaves, and manipulative experimentation, all wrapped up in the kindness and cruelty humanity has to offer to itself. Swinging from tender to horrifying, there’s a story here for anyone whose reading tastes lean towards the dark, the dystopian, and the weird, with a healthy serving of contemplative speculation that will leave you thinking long after you leave the pages.

What does Calvaria mean, you ask?

The title of the collection tethers these stories to a shared space. The calvaria is the top part of the skull, comprising five plates that fuse together in the first few years of life. Story collections work like this; disparate parts melding together to make a robust and sturdy whole. The calvaria tree, also known as the dodo tree, adapted to being eaten by the now-extinct dodo bird; its seeds need to pass through the bird’ s digestive tract in order to germinate. In a similar way, the stories in Calvaria Fell reflect the idea of adaptation and the consequences of our actions in a changing world.

–Meerkat Press

Pick up your copy of Calvaria Fell at  Meerkat Press Bookshop.org | Amazon and enter Meerkat Press’ $25 Gift Card Giveaway contest here! In the meantime, please enjoy this interview with Cat and Kaaron!

QUESTIONS ABOUT CALVARIA FELL

Thank you so much for participating in this interview! First off, I’d love to know more about how this project came about. A dual-author collection of short stories is such a unique and fun idea, and your styles blend so beautifully. What was the spark that made you take on this project together?

We’ve been reading and editing each other’s work for as long as we’ve known each other. We met when Cat bought a story from Kaaron, and while we’ve often worked in different genres and arenas, at heart our stories explore similar themes of human behaviour and consequences.

A couple of years ago, we both had stories we considered complete, set in self-contained worlds but with questions raised about what happens outside these worlds. We realised that Cat’s short story “Some Kind of Indescribable”, and Kaaron’s novella “The Emporium” somehow seemed to inhabit that ‘outside’ space, answering those questions to a certain degree.

We talked about some of the new stories Cat was working on, and realised that we’d somehow over the years been working at times in the same kind of near future, with similar landscapes and projected futures, with at the same time a kind hope running through it relying on humanity to look after its own.

We were working in a second-hand shop together, a wonderful place where hundreds of interesting and unusual items came in every week, all of them bringing a past and a possible future. Many of these items ended up in our stories, because we believe that many items hold a lot of community weight and significance even if they have lost their history. We explored these items in detail, because it is in the detail where people are at their best. Focusing on the smaller picture.

When you were writing the stories for CALVARIA FELL, did you work explicitly on your own stories or did you edit each other’s work or plan them together? What kind of things are considered and weighted to create cohesion between the stories?

We wrote them separately and stitched them together as a whole, although Cat wrote “Doll Face” with the rest of the collection in mind. 

It was in the selection of stories where the consideration and weight took place. For Kaaron, it was choosing those of her stories that were more SF than horror, and for Cat it was selecting stories that leaned towards the horror end of SF. The ‘meeting of the minds’ is what brings cohesiveness to the collection.

Climate destruction runs through it all, and that is intentional.

Placement was organic, in that one story seemed to flow into the next. 

One of the things I appreciated about this collection was how all the stories managed to create this deep sense of dread and distrust, particularly regarding giant corporations, new tech run amok, climate change, and inequality. It’s a feeling I think a lot of people are having these days. Given the state of the world today, what scares you the most right now?

All of it. Humanity’s own inertia in response to scientific advice is terrifying. Current catastrophic threats to life on this planet include: global heating, environmental decline and extinction, nuclear weapons, resource scarcity, food insecurity, dangerous new technologies, chemical pollution, pandemic disease, and denial and misinformation – all of which are happening at once. Humanity is utterly failing in its self-appointed stewardship of the only planet so far proven to support any form of life, let alone the complex or sentient. Yet here we are, cranking out new coal and gas fired power stations, despite scientists assuring us we have to switch to renewables asap or else suffer dire consequences – such as the actual end of our civilisations.

Do you each have a favorite story from the collection, or a scene in a story that you found particularly resonant? Since it’s a dual collection, which was your favorite contribution to the book and which story is your favorite of your co-author’s?

Cat: My favourite story of Kaaron’s is ‘Witnessing’, with its use of gang members as low-tech surveillance devices. Her stories are riddled with small scale domestic grade horrors. Reading them is like being stabbed randomly with a fork throughout an otherwise civilized dinner party.

My favourite of my own is ‘Hacking Santorini’, written in response to a visit there a few years back. When the friend I stayed with read the story she said something along the lines of how the hell did you make this thing out of that place?

Kaaron: It’s hard to choose a favourite from a group of stories selected so carefully! But the novella The Emporium is one of those that sang out to me and demanded to be written. Set in part in the shopping mall in the suburb I grew up in, and inspired deeply by my work at the second-hand shop, I’m really happy with the end result and with the characters I filled that mall with. I love all of Cat’s stories, too, but my favourite is “Hacking Santorini” because of its obsessive attention to object detail and the way those things are absorbed and inform the story. The underlying humorous tone lends a positive feel to a dark SF story, and the story itself takes me by surprise every time I read it.

What do you feel is the most important thing for readers of CALVARIA FELL to bring away from the book with them? What do you hope they see or take with them to continue thinking about? 

The human experience is an intricate weave of macro and micro events with random elements scattershot throughout. As individuals, few of us have power to fight for or against major catastrophe – it’s how we respond that matters. Our true strength lies in community and the bonds we make within. Ten thousand years of agricultural settlement have left us in a precarious global position. Survival depends upon us embracing the ecosystems of which we are a part rather than just attempting to profit from them.

QUESTIONS ABOUT WRITING IN GENERAL

Building dread is such an artform, and you do it so well in CALVARIA FELL. Each story has an underlying tension of uncertainty about the future and the secrets we keep, both to protect others and to protect ourselves. What do you think about or need to be aware of when you’re conjuring dread in your prose? What do you think makes for the best evocation of that emotion in readers?

Kaaron: One of the most important things about building dread for me is that it shouldn’t be unrelenting. If a story is only dark and dread-filled, the reader will turn off. You need lighter moments, and you need to ensure your characters are real on the page. This is what makes the best evocation. If the reader can relate to, understand, or sympathise with the characters, the emotion will be stronger.

Most people will want moments of relief, even in the worst of circumstances. In a way I see it as a release valve, to stop pressure building up and keep heads clearer. Dread in story is the same; you need to release the pressure every now and then.

Cat: For me, dread is best evoked through hint and tone, then maintained through rhythm. Less is definitely more. The author plants seeds and the reader experiences things sprouting uncomfortably in their peripheral vision.

Finding the time and motivation to get one’s writing done can be a challenge for writers, so I’m curious about your writing routines. Do you have a typical routine for getting your work done, or not so much? How has your approach to making time for your art changed over the years?

Cat: Back when I was in full-time employment with very little free time, I wrote heaps because I had to fight for writing time and space, making every sentence expensive and therefore valuable in terms of emotional labour. Theoretically I have buckets of ‘free time’ now – the challenge has become about stealing precious hours away from domestic responsibilities and visual arts, my other hardcore area of interest. For me, writing has always been challenging and it’s not getting any easier as I get older. No routines that seem to stick, just a burning urge to be part of the global speculative conversation.

Kaaron: I’ve had so many variations in my writing practice! From typing on an electric typewriter while hour-long tapes copied when I ran an editing studio in an advertising agency, to working part time and writing in the afternoons, to having my children and snatching ten minutes here and there to work, to living in Fiji for three years and devoting most of my time there to completing three novels, to working part time again and writing the rest of the time, to writing full time again! Throughout it all what has driven me is a need to get words on the page. To explore the ideas that press forward, and to interpret the things that upset me or terrify me into a story.

Now that CALVARIA FELL is out in the world, what’s next for the both of you? What project is calling your name (if you can talk about it)?

Kaaron: I have a novel out called The Underhistory, a home-invasion meets haunted  house story. I’m working on my next novel, another crime novel, inspired by the hundreds of magazine articles and newspaper clippings I’ve collected over the years.

Cat: I’m working on a new novel, as yet untitled, set in London, Berlin, Australia and a swathe of no man’s land at the point where climate crisis and AI Singularity slam up against each other. Loads of research going into this one – my protagonist is a climate activist. We need more stories about activism as antidote to apathy and despair.

A COUPLE FUN QUESTIONS

I’m always looking for new things to read, so I’ve got to ask: what are you currently reading? What novel or short story has really excited you recently? Any nonfiction books really blown your mind lately?

Cat: I recently finished The Mountain in the Sea and The Tusks of Extinction by Ray Nayler and loved them both. Currently reading The Future We Choose – The Stubborn Optimist’s Guide to the Climate Crisis by Christiana Figueres & Tom Rivett-Carnac & I’m looking forward to Deep Water: The World in the Ocean by James Bradley next.

Kaaron: I’m reading up for some crime conventions in the UK in May, so discovering writers like Syd Moore, Natalie Marlow and Caroline England. 

A non-fiction book that is blowing my mind is “Gilles de Rais, The Authentic Bluebeard” by Jean Benedetti. I’ve always quoted the fairy tale Bluebeard as an early inspiration for me as a horror writer, so reading this biography of a mass murderer, starting from his life as a child, is utterly fascinating.

If you could choose one fictional character to spend an afternoon with, who would you choose and what would you spend your time doing?

Cat: Rather than pick a character, I’d like to pick a world – the fantastically tweaked landscapes of Les Coureurs in Dave Hutchinson’s Fractured Europe sequence. What would I be doing? It’s complicated…

Kaaron: I’m going to cheat a bit and name Pera Sinclair, the main character in my novel The Underhistory. She would be great fun to hang out with and have lots of stories to tell. She also makes a good scone.

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ABOUT THE AUTHORS: 

Cat Sparks is a multi-award-winning Australian author, editor and artist. Career highlights include a PhD in science fiction and climate fiction, five years as Fiction Editor of Cosmos Magazine, running Agog! Press, working as an archaeological dig photographer in Jordan, studying with Margaret Atwood, 78 published short stories, two collections— The Bride Price (2013) and Dark Harvest (2020) and a far future novel, Lotus Blue. She directed two speculative fiction festivals for Writing NSW and is a regular panelist & speaker at speculative fiction and other literary events.

Kaaron Warren has been publishing ground-breaking fiction for over twenty years. Her novels and short stories have won over 20 awards, from local literary to international genre. She writes horror steeped in awful reality, with ghosts, hauntings, guilt, loss, love, crime, punishment and a lack of hope.

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It’s a Wonderful Mo*Con

It’s the Monday following Mo*Con in Indianapolis, and aside from some wretched luck on our drive home from the airport, the trip otherwise went off without a hitch. I got to hang out with some truly fantastic people, made some new friends, and spent precious time with old friends whom I never get to see often enough. The panels I attended were great, moderated by the lovely Jason Sanford, and included such visionaries as Dr. Chesya Burke, Sheree Rene Thomas (Fantasy & Science Fiction), Scott H. Andrews (Beneath Ceaseless Skies), LaShawn M. Wanak (GigaNotoSaurus), Danian Darrell Jerry, Saladin Ahmed, of course Maurice Broaddus himself. I had some absolutely stellar conversations about the current magazine industry, horror films, and the state of the world. I had LOTS of excellent craft beer. And of course I got to spend some quality time with my bestie!

It’s such a fantastic con, because it’s small and intimate, usually only 100 attendee slots are available. Each event is catered by local Indianapolis restaurants and hosted at local community centers and bookstores (or Mo’s place). Craft breweries and gastropubs are abundant for barconning and casual conversations. Everyone I’ve met at Mo*Con is kind and generous with their knowledge and support. I suspect I’m going to have to make this a yearly or biyearly thing to attend as long as they continue, because it’s just too much fun to miss!

Any favorite cons or retreats you’d recommend?

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Editing with a Scalpel instead of a Chainsaw

The internet is stuffed with advice on how to edit, most of it couched in violent terms that imply ruthlessness. Viciousness seems a necessary attribute for any writer who aims to successfully improve their own work. The most famous ones quotes, of course, are these:

Whenever you feel an impulse to perpetuate a piece of exceptionally fine writing, obey it–whole-heartedly–and delete it before sending your manuscript to press. Murder your darlings.

Sir Arthur Quiller-Couch, in On the Art of Writing

The most essential gift for a good writer is a built-in, shockproof, shit detector. This is the writer’s radar and all great writers have had it.

Ernest Hemingway, The Paris Review Interviews, Vol. 1

But what if you’re too ruthless?

If you’re anything like me, you know that there’s such a thing as being too hard on your own work. You have no problem culling words (hell, I enjoy it!). Your shit detector is screaming constantly. Kill your darlings? In the past I’ve interpreted that as taking out every line I actually liked. Joy in any part of the work was suspect. I can’t afford to be precious.

And the shit detector-! Every single word sets it off. Every “is” or “was” or “been” or “had”–blaring klaxons. Every word is one too many. I’ve leaned into the 10% Solution and Refuse to Be Done lists of words to eliminate from my writing, and I’m darn good at hunting them down and removing them. I’ve gotten so good at pulling out words, that I’ve found there’s even a negative-buoyancy point when the words just start tumbling out of their own accord, the word count going into free fall.

However, while I’d never say trimming a work back is a bad practice, there is a point of diminishing returns, and the risk of the dreaded overworking.

It looks tortured…

How much is too much editing?

If you listen to all the advice online, it seems geared specifically towards writers who don’t want to edit. We’re pushed to produce a shitty first draft, because you can’t edit what you haven’t written. Writing is rewriting. We’re expected to do four, five, fifteen drafts, because that’s what good work takes. Dedication and persistence unto excellence.

But what about writers who loathe their work at times? Who hate everything about what they’ve produced and can’t see a way to make it any better? Advice to edit and edit and edit is stymieing, paralyzing. And the truth is, too, that you can ruin a work with too much tweaking. You can suck the life out of your work, draining it of passion and excitement and interest. In painting, it’s called muddying, when you’ve over-blended, over-mixed, and your contrasts have melded to nearly the same tone, and the colors are bland and lack brightness. I’m well familiar with overworking in painting, but writing?

How can I tell when done is done?

This is what I’ve been struggling with as long as I can remember writing. Of course, there are quotes about “abandoning” rather than “finishing,” but even that implies perpetual work could be beneficial. I can’t tell you the number of stories I’ve written and wrestled with, eventually tucking into some innocuous computer folder for further revision once “I know what to do with it.” The problem, of course, is that I sometimes never know what to do to fix the issue. Sometimes it’s a problem with the core idea. Sometimes it’s a bad POV or the wrong voice or the wrong angle on the story. Sometimes I can tell I just don’t fully believe what I’m writing, which is death for any speculative story. Lack of confidence is another one that’s hard to pin down (I can’t tell you the number of times as a slush editor I read a story and thought, WOW, this person knows what they’re doing–confidence shines through).

And never being done? Never letting go of an imperfect work? That’s the same as trunking a story. Because as I get older, I realize there are stories I’m never going to revisit and fix. I’m not the same person or writer I was when I created the story in the first place, and my motivation to write it has gone. And that feels–to me–so much worse than sending out something that may not be perfect.

Letting go takes practice.

This month, I’ve been focusing on letting go. I’ve been looking at my editing method, doing what I can to cut extraneous words with a scalpel instead of a chainsaw, and training myself to look for what I like about a piece. Because that’s the only method I can think of to preserve the heart of a work: keep what you love. Not every useless thing, but a few are okay. Give yourself breathing room. I’ve taken the Marie Kondo method out of the home and into my work: does it spark joy? If so, then keep it. If not? Let it go.

Editors aren’t going to remember your name for a bad piece of writing. They’re getting hundreds, possibly thousands of submissions. A bad submission is just an easy rejection.

I’ve had too many stories I held on to, thinking I’d fix them someday, only to submit them as-is later and find them solid homes without any of the major edits I personally feared they might need. Looking back at them now, I’m not at all ashamed of them. Sometimes I need that outside perspective to see what works. Experience has also shown me that I’ve successfully placed work I didn’t harp on too heavily, meaning the less-stringently edited work might have a value I can’t judge particularly well: a vibrancy or chaos that lets it breathe.

So I’m limiting my editing. I’m still going through my drafts, reading aloud for flow, and listening via dictation software for those odd spots that feel clunky. I’m trying to be more conscious of how many characters and settings I’m putting into a story BEFORE I need to evaluate whether they’re necessary. I’m keeping a list of words I personally use too often (“so,” for example, and “little” and “just”), and I’m trying to weed those out of drafts. But I’m not letting myself set things aside for “when I know what to do,” because that’s the tar pit I get stuck in. I’m not writing off resting periods for work entirely, but I’m limiting it to days or a week, at most, rather than letting that period expand into months and months. It’s never really helped a story to rest that long.

I like the term “weeding” for editing. It’s less violent, less ruthless. Weeding is a delicate process. You must remove only that which steals life and energy from the delicate roots surrounding it, the roots you want to keep.

And weeding is impossible with a chainsaw.

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Dog Blog, Zines, and Mo*Con

Today, I launched a side project blog called The Neighborhood Beast. It’s a blog all about living with (and loving) a reactive dog. It’ll detail me and Mando’s progress on his reconditioning training as he learns how to handle strangers in public places, neighbors generally, and maybe (eventually) people in our house. It’s something that’s been a HUGE part of my life since we brought him home back in September 2022, but I haven’t really had a way to process what it’s like living with a dog who hates other people. The Neighborhood Beast is all about doing just that: documenting progress, being open about the struggles (and joys) of dog ownership, and hopefully providing some insight for others who might be going through the same thing.

I decided to do it as a separate blog, because it’s completely unrelated to my writing activities, and I’d like to keep this blog as writing-focused as I can. I’ve got some ideas for freshening up this space, too, so keep your eyes open!

It’s been a crazy week as the kids have April Vacation, so there hasn’t been much work done. I did play around with a zine, though, and have finished one to bring with me to Mo*Con next week (eek! How’d that come up so fast?!). If you’re going to be in Indianapolis over the weekend of May 2-5th, come say hi and get a free zine!

In the meantime, if you’re feeling like a bit of fiction, my weird short story about doing what you love for a living–“The Showerlier”–is up at Redivider!

EDIT: Also, if you need a lovely flash horror story that equates bodily aches and pains with ghosts in the most fascinating and delightful way, check out Lynne Sargent’s new story, “Your Body as a Haunted House, or When the Ghost Moves In” up at The Cosmic Background!

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Redivider Spring 2024 is LIVE!

As of today, my short story about doing what you love (and its unintended consequences!) is up at Redivider in their Spring 2024 issue! I’m so excited this strange little story has found such a lovely home with folks that not only get it, but delight in it. It really makes all the downsides of writing worth it when you really connect with other people via a story.

Will I like this story?

  • Do you find yourself standing in the shower after a long, difficult day at work and think: What if I could just shower for a living? Then this story is for you!
  • Are you the kind of person who notices when the soap dispensers or towel rack in a hotel bathroom are just in the worst positions to be useful? Then this story is for you!
  • Have you ever excitedly described to a slightly horrified bystander the amazing water-generated audible drain-art detail you noticed one time in a spa shower? Then this story is for you!
  • Do you just really, really love a good freaking shower? Then this story is for you.

Don’t miss out! Check out “The Showerlier” up at Redivider, now!

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Neck Pain, Endings, & Vacuums

What am I working on this week? I threw my neck out last Tuesday, and it’s still tender and difficult to do much laptop work, so as you can imagine, this update will be brief. I finished the word cull last week, submitted a flash story, and started the out-loud read for the WiP story. I seem to be leaning hard on the cull-side of editing, but I’m finding it’s been rather too harsh in this case, and I need to add a lot of breath back into the text so it sounds like me. I’m still hashing out how I ought to best edit, because I definitely fall on the “too harsh/everything is crap” side of the editor eye, and I need to be a little gentler on my work. This week, I’m hoping to finish getting questions ready for an upcoming author(s) interview, breathe life back into this edited story, and maybe (maybe) get it submitted.

What’s inspiring me this week? I’ve been horizontal for a lot of this week, keeping strain off my neck (it’s almost entirely on the left side), which has made writing/reading very challenging. I’ve been dipping my toes into the Kanban productivity management system, but I’m not sure it’s for me. I’ve been playing some Stardew Valley on my side. I’ve been eeking my way through the latest season of Love is Blind, and mostly just enjoy hearing my own voice giving commentary on why X or Y are a bad match for each other, despite only having the data the show chooses to provide. I’ve started reading Annie Bot, which is great, and I’m tearing through Their Eyes Were Watching God, which is insanely good. I also started reading Jane Friedman’s The Business of Being a Writer, which is both interesting and stressful. I’m watching Michael Arndt’s video on story endings, which has given me some thoughts on the Novel Projects. I’ve got a bad case of March Notebook Fever (aka, time for a new notebook/my system needs a retool), and I regret to say, I’ve acted on it and a new notebook will be arriving shortly. The addition is coming along, coming along, coming along, but like Sisyphus, the job never ends. I’m trying to plant sprouted potatoes and onions. Oh! And we got a new vacuum, which actually WORKS. Our rugs have never been happier.

What’s challenging me this week? Being kind enough to myself to REST. The neck is moving in the right direction, but as anyone who’s thrown their neck out knows, this is the most dangerous time, because this is when we push it too much, and injure ourselves again. So I’m trying to go really, really slow, and give myself breaks. Driving, writing, reading, and computer work are the hardest on the neck, so that’s going to complicate my work week, but we’ll see what we can work out…

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A New Submission, Friday Fright Night, & Anthology Calls

What I’m working on: This week, in relation to a webinar I took on anthologies (more below on that), I finished up a short story and got it submitted! Hooray! The crowd goes wild! Feeling quite good about that. I’ve also started reading my next (hopefully) submission out loud to give a good, rounding polish. This is the phase I really enjoy–the trimming and smoothing pass. So I’m hoping I’ll get that nearly done by the end of the week, if not done and out the door (*fingers crossed*). After that gets out the door, I might take a look at another short story I need to review and make notes on, but it will also be about time for me to dive back into the novel and see what’s good and what’s not so good yet. YET. It’ll get there. There’s work to do, but we’ll get there.

What’s inspiring me: I took a great course on submitting to anthologies with writer Shanna Germain via the Reach Your Apex webinar series this past week. It was incredibly encouraging and inspiring. If you’re interested in increasing the amount you submit (hey-o! *waves*), this is a great course to arm yourself with. Germain, an author whose publications number in the hundreds as well as the editor of several anthologies, provides an abundance of intel to help you decide what anthologies are a good fit for you and your style, how to make your ideas stand out from the crowd, and how to track submissions and other business-of-writing information that I found incredibly helpful. A solid course with a great instructor for a reasonable price. I’m not sure when this course will come around again, but if it does, definitely check it out. See all of what Reach Your Apex has to offer on their site!

I finished a crazy amount of books last week (really dug into that Polyreader’s note about what I could probably wrap up already). I’ve definitely got some thoughts on HOW TO KEEP HOUSE WHILE DROWNING, and really enjoyed A HOUSE WITH GOOD BONES and DRIVE YOUR PLOW OVER THE BONES OF THE DEAD. I’m seeing a trend in these titles… Hmm… Also finished SLEWFOOT, which I’ve got some thoughts on things I picked up regarding plot, conflict, and villains. Brom is always a bit of an education, plot-wise.

I also finished SELFIE, all about the modern (or is it?) obsession with the self and self-actualizing and perfectionism (also, the ways in which culture drives suicide numbers, so you’ve been warned…), which was strangely poignant and painful to get through, and left me with a lot of feelings I haven’t quite sorted yet about the state of the world and the state of my own relationship with the self-esteem movement I spent a good chunk of my childhood stuck in. Participation trophies! You can do aaaaaanything! Just believe in yourself! Insights galore, arguments debated, and a general sense of buh. Kind of like dragging yourself out of a pool: you had a good time, but now you’re wet and feel like you’re standing on Jupiter. Still processing this one.

I’ve been playing a lot of Stardew Valley again, as Thing 2 has discovered two-player mode and likes to “pretend we’re sisters,” even though his interest in actually progressing in the game is very, very, VERY short-lived. I’ve also gotten a little bit into Animal Crossing, again because Thing 2 decided he wanted to spend some remaining Xmas/Bday money on it, though having a four year old as your resident representative is a little challenging for every other player… Can you tell I’ve been leaning hard into the comfort games?

I suspect that’s because construction continues. And continues. And continues. Every week it seems like THIS WILL BE THE WEEK that everything is wrapped up, and then…it’s not. It’s made us all cranky, realizing how much we’re gunning for that finish line. AND YET HE GAINS. (We also watched The Princess Bride and Top Gun: Maverick with Thing 1, who’s finally old enough to enjoy more grown-up movies. It’s been fun introducing him to things we love!)

In other movies, Andy and I have been on a Friday Fright Night kick lately. We watched Talk to Me (creepy ghost/possession) a couple weeks ago and enjoyed it (I only watched some of the scenes through jalousied fingers). We’ve also watched The Omen (antichrist horror), The Fog (John Carpenter horror), Out of Darkness (caveman horror), Backcountry (bear horror), and Don’t Breathe (twist on the “robbing the blindman” trope).

Also read “On the Wing” by Lindz McLeod in Flash Fiction Online and found its imagery and mood captivating. If you need a short, beautiful read, check it out!

What’s coming up: Eclipse, baby! And Spring Break at the end of next month, which will likely mean very little work gets done. I’ll probably be aiming to finish my own read-through of the novel and gather up all my notes and edit plans BEFORE that week, since it’s going to be a crapshoot. But for now, I’ve got time, and I’ve got my eyes on a couple other anthology calls. I’m definitely going to try to submit something to Flash Fiction Online’s Weird Horror call by April 21st, so I’m brainstorming on that this week and using Shanna Germain’s tips! I’m also chomping at the bit to start reading ANNIE BOT by Sierra Greer, so I’ll probably crack the cover on that this week. I’m also reading an ARC for CALVARIA FELL by Cat Sparks and Kaaron Warren, which I’m really enjoying so far! Look for an interview with Sparks and Warren in the coming months. I’m also craving some short Junji Ito, too, so that may be something I pick up in the next couple of weeks… Also, have I mentioned how obsessed I am with ‘zines still? I picked up a few the other week, and may need to post about them, soon. I really, really want to make my own, and I’ve got entirely too many ideas. I need to get some out of my head so I can focus on the novel for a while.

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Notes From a Poly-Reader: MARCH 2024

Hello and welcome to another Polyreader Notes, where I take a quick look at EVERYTHING I’m reading and try to figure out how not to cry about it! It’s been a tick, hasn’t it? But I haven’t stopped reading a ton of books at once!

Actually, it’s usually a less dramatic process of deciding if anything I’m currently reading should be a DNF or a set-aside-for-now book so I can focus on some I have a chance of finishing by the end of the month.

If you’re new to my Polyreader Notes, you may be thinking, Ah! But what’s a polyreader? Very simply put, a polyreader is someone who reads multiple books at the same time. For example, I might at any time be reading a few non-fiction books, a couple fiction books, an ebook on my Kindle, and an audiobook. For some reason I do not get confused between books, so I like to match up what I’m reading with whatever mood I’m in at the moment. If you’re interested in a more in-depth dive about my particular reading habits, you can check out this blog post here!

THE CURRENT READS:

I’m actually rather proud of myself! I thought I’d started and forgotten a lot more books lately, but this isn’t a terrible list. For longtime readers of these lists of mine, I’ve also added the bracketed (WHEN THE HECK DO I READ THIS?) notation, so I can actually see if I have a dedicated time to work on it or not. Okay! Let’s dive right in!

The Artful Edit – (AWKWARDLY STALLED) – I’ve picked up a lot of interesting tips from this book so far, and am about 2/5th of the way through so far. It’s been very informative, but I’m starting to suspect it’s messing with my current editing process, though it’s also highlighted why editing can be challenging for me (hint: it’s because I’m an overaggressive editor and immediately spin out of control thinking everything is terrible, whether it is or not…) So I’m kind of resting on this one until I’ve finished wrapping up “The Trash King” so I can get it finished and submitted.

Daily Rituals of Women at Work – (NOT SURE WHEN I READ THIS THUS WHY I’M NOT MAKING PROGRESS) – I’m about halfway through this one, and it’s fascinating. I’ve picked up some lovely stories of other women artists and their lives, and gained some valuable insight into what it even means to be an artist, currently and in the past. I highly recommend it, and it’s easy to dip in and out of (right now, I’m mostly “out”). There’s a good ways to go in this, but I am curious.

Selfie – (DURING KID CLASSES/AFTERNOONS) – I’m 9/10th of the way through this one. SO FREAKING CLOSE. It’s been both fascinating and also the worst book choice for this time of year. It’s just…kind of a downer? I mean, I feel like I’ve learned a lot, but I also feel like it’s kind of disillusioned me about humanity, and I’m not sure I like that. Also, while it definitely states at the beginning that there’s a lot of variety within cultures as to how things manifest, it does feel–at times–a little foreign to me. Not all of it–certainly there are things I can see and witness in my day-to-day life that are absolutely spot-on–but some of the more hero/celebrity-worship side of things, which may just boil down to a microcosm of family culture (less, in my family’s case). I can definitely finish this by the end of the month, so I’ll try to wrap it up ASAP.

20 Master Plots – (IN THE CAR WAITING FOR PRESCHOOL PICKUP OR AT HOME ON OFF-DAYS) – 3/5ths through this one and I’m really enjoying it. It’s a fascinating look at some of the mechanics of storytelling, and not in a deeply prescriptive way so much as an analytic dive into common plot structures (the Adventure story, for example, vs. the Quest story, which often have different driving factors and a different emphasis on physical-action vs. interior-mindwork–fascinating!). It reminds me more of the articles I’ve seen out there on Kitsutenketsu–structural breaksdowns that explain reader expectations, which I–as a notorious flounderer in plot–am finding very helpful and useful. Probably won’t wrap this up this month, but probably by the end of next month.

Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead – (BEDTIME BOOK) I’m at the climax of this one (one of three!), and it’s fabulous. I really think Olga Tokarczuk is one of my new favorite writers. She has a wonderful way of mixing the strange with the mundane, which if you know anything about me, you know I love. It’s not as dread-inducing as I maybe falsely expected it to be? But I have mightily enjoyed it. I’ll probably finish this one tonight or tomorrow. Certainly by the end of the weekend.

Monstress – (RANDOMLY WHEN I GET THE IPAD TO MYSELF) – I’m not actually sure how far I am in this–I feel like I’ve been reading it for years (lol, I think I did start it a couple years ago when I was on a graphic novel kick). Not that it’s boring or bad! It’s actually fabulous, and I enjoy it a lot. It’s very dark and gory, though, so it’s not something I can easily read with the boys around, and it’s on the iPad we all share, so, again, don’t get it in my hands all that often. I need to make more effort here, because I really love the mythology and world-building in this one. And the art-! OMG. Gorgeous.

Slewfoot – (DURING CHORE-TIME AND WHEN MAKING DINNER IF I DON’T GET TOO INTERRUPTED!) I’m so, so, so close to being done with this one, too! In fact, all my fiction books are on the cusp! No wonder I’m so FREAKING STRESSED! All the tensions are coming to a head like the multitude of tides in Piranesi! (Which is also a fabulous book if you need to read something short and blazingly smart.) I’m audiobook-ing this one (yes, that’s a verb), and only have maybe a couple hours left, if that. SO CLOSE. Things are happening! Death is coming! EEEEEEEEEeeeeeee! Will finish this one in the next week, most likely.

How to Keep House While Drowning – (DOWNSTAIRS RANDOMLY) This one’s a short little book, and I’m almost halfway through it, so I bet I can get this wrapped by the end of next week. This book has been great for framing the moral stressors of keeping a clean/tidy home, and how hard it can be to meet cultural standards (or self-imposed standards) when you’re struggling with ADHD, depression, anxiety, neurdiversity that makes executive functions challenging–it’s been very encouraging so far, and while I already do a lot of the tips/tricks the therapist-author recommends (linking an enjoyable thing you want to do with something you don’t want to do, i.e. watching Love is Blind only when folding laundry), there have been a few others and a few mental reframings that have been very helpful. It also leans hard into the “your house works for you, not you for your house” mentality, which I’ve been very intrigued by lately (thus drawn to newsletters like Your House Machine about using systems and project management skills to organize your life more efficiently, and mis-en-place as found in books like Work Clean, about having systems and realistic time blocking skills). I’ve enjoyed it so far, and if you feel like you’re drowning and just…can’t with the laundry AGAIN, this could be a good read for you!

A House with Good Bones – (READING FOR ME WHILE LYING DOWN WITH THING 2 AT BEDTIME) – Phew! And here’s the third one I’m just about done with. I’m on the climax yet again, and we’re digging deep, if you know what I mean. I’ve enjoyed this one a lot–it kind of reminds me of It’s Not a Cult mixed with Grady Hendrix’s How to Sell a Haunted House. If you’ve liked either of those, you’ll probably like this one, too! I was kind of hoping it’d be a bit spookier (dread is my horror style of choice, if you can’t tell), but I’ve still really enjoyed it. I’ll probably finish up with this one tonight or tomorrow.

WHOOPSIE – turns out I forgot two… Yeah, that’s feeling more like the weight of books I’ve got going right now…

THE FORGOTTEN BOOKS ALSO ON THE LIST:

Your Nine-Year-Old – (I FORGOT THIS ONE, BUT YEAH I SHOULD FINISH IT BEFORE THING 1 TURNS 10…) – Picked this one up because Thing 1 has been pretty moody lately, and I wanted to get a gauge on what’s normal-ish for the age. While some of the stuff in these books feels a good bit dated, the generalities are interesting and often helpful in understanding what Thing 1 is going through and how to help (or step back, as needed). It’s a short one, just a few chapters, so I should probably just power through it and get it done. He’s not getting any younger!

The Dark – (RANDOMLY) – This is another one that I started ages and ages ago, but I LOOOOOVE it. The only issue is that I whipped through a lot of the shorter stories when I was on my 4-5k story kick, which left only the novelettes at the end. That said, the second-to-last one is by Lucius Shepherd who is one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE ghost story writers (omg, DREAD TO THE MAX, but so beautiful and tender and UGH HE WAS SO TALENTED!!!). So this one’s just a matter of making time for it, and I can probably do that in the afternoons post-chore work. I just hate getting interrupted while reading it (he’s such a mood-generator!), which any of you with small kids know, HAHA, yeah, quiet time for yourself isn’t really a “thing”. And it’s too large/heavy to hold to read in bed like I usually do, or at the boys’ bedtimes, so that’s been the one limiting factor. I’ll probably just need to commit to bringing it to the boy classes this next week or two, but there’s no reason I should be able to wrap it up this month.

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And there you go! All 11 books that I’m currently reading! (Thank goodness: I thought I’d hit my dreaded deadly-dozen. For those not in the know, when I hit 12 books going simultaneously, you know I’m reading too many similar books and/or am actively avoiding a few, which slow everything down). Hopefully by this time next month, I’ll be back down to a more reasonable number again.

Journal

Editing Stress, Lackluster Escapism, & Limbo

Editing is such a strange process. It’s ephemeral, more thought than action, more taking away than putting in–at least for me. I find it hard to quantify, which often makes me feel like I’ve just wasted hours doing nothing, when in fact I’ve been doing some pretty intensive think-work. But there’s nothing to show for it, initially! Writing a new story: bam! 500 words. Check. But editing those words? How do I measure that? How do I celebrate those wins and feel like I’ve done something during that oh-so-precious writing time?

At the moment, I earn a big sticker if I work for 2 hours, quantifying the time vs. the word count like I might in a new project. I get a small sticker if I touch the project on an off-day (because that, it turns out, is hard). So I got a big sticker today! But I find I’m still unimpressed with my work for the day, even though I read through the entirety of the project, made notes, and mapped out the redraft. It probably doesn’t help that I’ve been reading TWO books on editing (because that’s where April’s headed–rereading and mapping out the edits for the novel), and I’ve got too much in mind to keep an eye on all of it. So this pass, I’m looking at character motivation. It’s a bigger edit than I’d like it to be, but that’s how it goes, sometimes.

Man, I’m in a mood today. Anyway…

What’s inspiring me–

I’ve been plowing through The Artful Edit by Susan Bell, which has got my brain all up in knots. There’s just so much to consider when approaching an edit like this, and I have to also balance my own tendency to be much too harsh on the work and too aggressive with the edit. I need a more cool, zen-like mindset, but I just find I don’t have the mental reserves right now.

I’ve also been reading Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead by Olga Tokarczuk, which is fabulous. I also picked up A House with Good Bones by T. Kingfisher, which I’m enjoying, but haven’t been reading enough of. I’m over halfway through the audiobook for Slewfoot by Brom, which I’m enjoying, but which is also stressing me out (witch trials–yeaaaaaaa…) And that damn Selfie book by Will Storr is just…woof. It’s a bit of a pill. It’s not uninteresting, but it’s got a real heaviness to it that I can’t quite shake, which probably also isn’t helping my mood lately. At least at night, I’ve been reading The Golden Spiders by Rex Stout to the boys, and they seem to be really enjoying it, which is fun.

TV-wise, we’ve been back at Fargo for Season 3, and yeah, that’s definitely one source of “meh”ness in the day-to-day. It’s just nothing like Season 1 and 2, and I’m longing for that rollercoaster thrill-ride which this one just…isn’t. It’s fine. It’s not bad. It’s just not what I wanted right now. Ah well.

Gaming-wise, I’ve been picking at the last 6% of Spiritfarer, but it’s feeling rather unsatisfying at the moment, too, with endless spirit requests that don’t seem to wrap up to any specific end. I’m ready for it to be done, but it’s just dragging on and on…

I think the main thing we’re dealing with here is LIMBO. The construction project is so, so, SO close to being done, but isn’t done yet, and these final details are just taking forever. It’s stressful for us, stressful for the dog, stressful for my folks. It also means any personal projects I might want to do around the house–i.e. going through our stuff and simplifying things/making chore habits more functional/establishing my own routines–is kind of stuck in neutral. We’re so close to starting this next chapter, but NOT YET. It’s honestly driving us all a little batty.

What’s Challenging Me?

Life? Can I put that as an answer?

But in all seriousness, I think it’s just a pileup of stressors and pet peeves and everything individually is small potatoes, but heaped up together is a BARN of potatoes, which gets to be a lot when it’s piled up on your back.

I also just really want to get this story wrapped up and done so I can work on something else, but I don’t want to rush it just to check the box. I want to do a good job. I want to take the time. I just wish it didn’t take SO MUCH time.

Journal

THREE QUESTIONS: Cadence Mandybura

Cadence Mandybura’s story may be one of my favorites in this collection. Yvonne is an employee at a center that transforms humans into trees. There are as many reasons for people to become trees: some do so as a final resting place, some commute their prison sentences to become trees, some commit to being trees early, too tired of being human. But when a senseless act of violence reignites protests and harassment of the center, Yvonne is swept into an all too familiar storm of anger and frustration with her fellow humans. Tormented by her own rage, Yvonne must come to terms with the world as it is, with people as they are, and with herself. This story captures a beautifully strange idea in the best imaginative way that hits the reader right in the heart.  

Read it in Metaphorosis: Best of 2023 now available on Amazon!

1. The Writing Question: Do you have any favorite exercises or writing practices that you feel help you develop your craft skills?

I like to start my day with a handwritten fifteen-minute free write. It isn’t quite like Julia Cameron’s morning pages, as my entries usually aren’t stream-of-consciousness, but rather little fiction experiments. There’s no pressure and no stakes, and I can try out writing techniques or perspectives as the mood strikes me. Most importantly, it gets my hand and brain moving, and helps sustain the writing momentum from day to day. Occasionally I will revisit these “daily randoms” and find one to turn into a proper story. 

2. The Spec Fic Question: What draws you to writing speculative fiction? Do you lean more towards one genre (science fiction/fantasy/horror) more than others, or do you like to mix them together?

Anything can happen in fiction, so why not imagine a world that’s a little more wondrous than the one that surrounds us? I lean towards softly fantastical stories—usually only a degree or two away from a realist world. Perhaps I find the magic more enchanting when it’s embedded in the mundane.

3. The Oddball Question: Any life hacks you’ve learned that you couldn’t live without?

Using a physical visual timer to help keep me on task. (Like this.) Being able to see how much time I have left for whatever activity I’m currently doing—whether it’s eating breakfast, working on writing, or doing housework—helps me focus and frees me from having to check the time.


Cadence Mandybura’s fiction has been published in Pulp LiteratureTales & FeathersOrca, and FreeFall. Cadence is a graduate of the Writer’s Studio at Simon Fraser University and past associate producer for the fiction anthology podcast, The Truth. She likes to drum. CadenceMandybura.com