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February Round-Up: Stories, Sketches, and Sales

I have no idea where the month of February went! It felt like just yesterday I was looking for good strawberries to dip in chocolate for Valentine’s Day. There’s an element of “Blersuary” what with the pandemic ongoing, I’m sure.

But that doesn’t mean nothing happened in February! I finished three books (Nerve, From Baby Brain to Writer Brain, and Story Engineering), and started five others (naturally). I solved my Power Broker reading problem–due to being a ten-pound softcover that can’t be held in one hand–by getting the audiobook version, which means I’ve actually been making some progress on it!

I sold one story, though still waiting on the contract, so can’t (as yet) announce where or when it’ll be coming out. But I can say it’s a pro-market! So I’m thrilled to pieces. I also finally finished the rough draft of “A Splendid Journey,” but it’s about half-again longer than the max word count I was aiming for, and given the specificity of the anthology call I was writing it for, I’m not sure it’ll have legs at any other markets. (One of the pitfalls of writing to anthology calls.) But I do like it a lot, so we’ll have to see what I do with it, if anything.

I’m also just on the verge of wrapping up my Novel Writing Essentials course, once I get a few more critiques submitted. It’s been a great class, chockfull of great people, and some really great writing. Looking forward to starting Write Your Novel mid-March! I’ve gotten significantly farther into my book’s second draft than I ever had managed to do before via this course, and I’m hoping to maintain the momentum.

I also started sketching a bit this month! I’m pretty rusty, so some of them are a touch embarrassing, but overall I’m just thrilled to be drawing regularly again. The only thing that’ll help me get better is doing it more often!

And of course, no post regarding February would be complete without a shot of said Chocolate-Dipped Strawberries from Valentine’s Day!

Turned out pretty nicely, all things considered!

So how was your February? Did the get-up-and-go energy of January carry through for you, or did it start to flag a bit?

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Friday Updates: Update-y McUpdates-Pants

Well, after last week’s wild churn of words, this week has been (perhaps not unpredictably) less…churn-y.

What did I work on this week?

Took three days to hit my 2k/wk requirement on the novel, and honestly, I’m not sold on some of the scenes I laid down. They feel watery and cheap. You know the feeling. But they’ll get there. One is actually pretty solid, and two just need…something. Time, probably.

Then for Thursday/Friday, I plunged into the rewriting of a fantasy short story I wrote years ago, but have never submitted. I still really like it at its core, but after all the book-learning’ I’ve been doing about plot and tension and dynamic story structure, I’m running up hard against that “conscious incompetence” thing. I know at least a lot of what isn’t working, but not enough to know how to fix it.

Well, I have some ideas. It’s just going to mean a complete rewrite. (*sobs*) So I’m going through the original draft, painstakingly tightening all the overwriting and trying to massage a better plot into it. It’s…not super fun. So I’m trying to keep my chin up and not get discouraged.

This year (and the previous one!) has been shockingly tough on short fiction for me. Finding both the headspace and the quiet time to make progress with both kiddos (one of whom was born in 2020) at home has been a challenge, to say the very least. My brain’s engine is revving and roaring, ready to blast off, and it feels sometimes like I’ve forgotten to take the parking brake off.

Classes have helped me focus, and I feel like I’ve learned a lot, I’m just chaffing to put what I’ve learned into practice. I’m working on patience. Lots of patience….

What’s inspiring me this week?

Nothing. (#grumpus)

No, that’s not true. This week, I finished Story Engineering by Larry Brooks, and my head is exploding with ideas for how to fix a number of weaker (unsubmitted) short stories. Finding time to do so–well, that’s another question entirely. But the ideas are there, and I think they make the stories a LOT more functional. (It puts the “fun” in “functional”! XD)

I’m also getting the start-the-garden itch. I’ve never been particularly good at gardening, but now that we actually have some yard and garden space, I’m getting kind of excited to plan out something REALLY easy. Don’t know when I’ll get to start making those choices, but maybe this weekend? Maybe? (*whispers* maaaaaybe….?)

I’m also getting the make-your-own-clothes itch again, particularly with interest to making a front-buttoning midi-skirt from Wardrobe By Me. Because I have so much time! XD

Oooo, and Goldbug and I watched the Perseverance landing Thursday, so that was fun! It’s kind of nice to focus on something very far from Earth and all its issues…

What am I working on next week?

Umm….writing. (#needanap) Okay, okay, more specifically, I’m chugging along on the same method I’ve been tackling the last two weeks: 2k on the novel first, and then any extra writing time on rewriting that short story step by painstaking step.

I’d also like to finish one more book this week to hit my month’s reading goal (to read more about how to finish more books while poly-reading, I have a post here about that!). I’ve got a couple that are getting close, so I’ll have to look over the weekend and decide what’s going to be the easiest to wrap up.

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Are These 3 Poly-Reading Mistakes Keeping You From Finishing Books?

I love poly-reading. For those unfamiliar, poly-reading means you read multiple books at a time. Not everybody reads like this. My mother, for example, is a pretty devout book-monogamist. She reads one at a time, and reads a lot, so we end up reading nearly the same number of books a year.

But if you’re a poly-reader like me, you enjoy switching between books. For me, poly-reading allows me the freedom to choose what I read depending on my mood. Feeling down? Maybe pick up that book on comedy writing tonight. Feeling tired? A nice easy Rex Stout mystery might be in order. Amped up and need to cool off? Time to break out the big, thoughtful biography. Life feeling a bit dull? Time for that mountaineering book!

Sometimes I just don’t feel like reading a downer novel. Sometimes I do. When I mono-read, I end up not reading as much, because if my mood doesn’t fit the book I’ve got, I won’t pick it up at all. Poly-reading allows me to read a lot, every day, regardless of my mood. And I love that.

As a writer, I also enjoy the benefit of mixing completely unrelated subject matters (George Washington’s biography plus cave-diving plus necromancer fantasy? That’s gonna give you some WEIRD dreams). Sometimes ideas I never would have thought about come to me precisely because I’m mixing books like a drunken alchemist.

But while there are many benefits to reading multiple books at once, there is one major pitfall: you can wrack up a huge “currently reading” pile that never gets finished. My goal is to read 52 books this year, which means I actually do need to finish books.

I’ve also encountered numerous people who poly-read but struggle to finish anything. (Poly-reading is a blessing and a curse.) I used to be that person. But I’ve picked up on three common mistakes I’ve made and others make that can bloat the pile and lead to too many unfinished reads. Watch out for these three things, and you will definitely be finishing books!

1. You’re reading too many books.

I know! I know! I hear you saying, “But isn’t the definition of poly-reading that I read a bunch of books at once?” Well, yes. The bliss of poly-reading is that you get to read a bunch at once. The pitfall of poly-reading is that it’s easy to start too many.

Almost every time I stop finishing books, the FIRST problem I run into is that I’ve overloaded my “currently-reading” pile. For non-poly-readers, this might be trying to tackle two books at a time. For you, it may be six. It may be nine. Or fifteen. For me, it’s twelve.

A dozen books sounds like a lot, and it is. Twelve is my max. The moment I have thirteen books on my “currently reading” pile, it’s a sign that I’m deliberately avoiding some of the books already on my list. What’s important is determining how many books you can reasonably cycle-through, while still finishing books now and then.

Why might you be avoiding books on your list?

2. You’re reading too many similar books.

This is the second reason my “currently reading” pile gets out of hand. One of the reasons I poly-read is because I like to have some options of what to read, depending on my mood. Sometimes I don’t want a really heavy read, or a humorous read, or a biography.

The problem occurs when I have two or three books that scratch the same itch. If I’ve got three books that are non-fiction pop science, when I’m in the mood for that kind of read, I now have to split my attention between the three. Same deal if I’ve got two similar-tone fantasies, or four writing-related books.

Splitting my choices means I don’t make nearly as much progress in any of them, which leads to books lingering far too long in my pile. When they linger, it’s more likely I’ll start losing interest in them, and if that happens, the pile grows out of control, unless I avoid Mistake #3. 2

3. You don’t cull your pile.

“But I should finish the books I start!” I know. I know. I feel you. But after years and years of poly-reading, I’ve come to the conclusion that sometimes you just have to cut a dragging book loose.

For one thing, holding onto a book you no longer feel motivated to read weighs down your pile. Every time I see a neglected book on my list, it makes me feel guilty. Feeling guilty sometimes means I avoid my pile all together. Or start committing Mistake #1 again, by picking up new books in order to avoid looking at my disappointing pile.

For another thing, once excitement about a read is gone, it may not come back. I’ve held onto books I’d lost interest in for YEARS, and there rarely comes a point when I suddenly find myself excited about it again. And each year that passes without finishing a neglected book feeds the guilt, and that feeds the avoidance, and that’s a recipe for an overloaded pile.

Books you’re no longer interested in can be anchors on your reading motivation, and I’ve come to believe there’s some kernel of truth in what Marie Kondo1 says about unread books: “The moment you first encounter a book is the right time to read it.” Sometimes, you’ve just lost that lovin’ feeling. And that’s okay, too.

Now, sometimes you just haven’t been in the right mood for a certain book. (Especially true during a pandemic!) Super-depressing books just haven’t been appealing to me lately. Does that mean I need to ditch the heavy classic I’m half-way through because I haven’t been in the mood recently? Not necessarily.

I review my “currently reading” pile once a year, around New Year’s. I look over my list, evaluate how interested I am in continuing to read each book, and make decisions accordingly. Some books stay on my list for years. The Marriage of Cadmus and Harmony was one of these; it stayed on my list for FOUR YEARS, because I loved it, I just didn’t want to rush through it. But other books, I just don’t care about anymore, so I dropped them from the list.

This also allows me to do the thing I love most about poly-reading: add more books to my list that I AM excited about!

BONUS TIP: Monthly Finishing Goals

Keeping an eye out for these three mistakes will help keep your reading pile reasonable. But what if you want to finish more of your in-progress books? For me, the thing that helps the most is setting a monthly finishing goal. Right now, my goal is four books a month. If I want to reach my reading goal for year (which is currently 52), I need to finish at least four a month.

Setting a goal like this helps me to look at my pile and evaluate how much time I’ll need on each book to finish it (some I can breeze through; some I like to linger on). It helps me pick which books are closest to finishing, and allows me prioritize them. Usually my mood dictates what kind of book I want to read; sometimes the book I need to read dictate my mood.

Ultimately, though, you need to do what makes you happy. If having a pile of twenty or thirty books in-progress is what makes you smile and they don’t weigh you down: that’s great! You do you. But if you’d like to finish a few more books this year, keep an eye out for these three mistakes and think about setting a monthly reading goal. You may find it helps!

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1 I know a lot of people have a knee-jerk freakout reaction to Marie Kondo’s book opinions, but having read her books AND seen the show, I think a lot of that freakout is misguided. She doesn’t say get rid of all your books. In fact, in the book, she specifically states that the “right” amount of books will vary from person to person, and that some people find great joy in having their home filled with books, and THAT’S OKAY.

Just as some people are happier with closets-full of shoes, some of us are happier with piles of books. BUT. Sometimes we hold onto books that truly DO drag us down, and THOSE we need to be willing to let go of.

I love having a house jam-packed with books, even books I haven’t read yet, but sometimes seeing those unread titles year after year (and move after move) can make you feel shitty that you still haven’t read them (and be honest: are you sure you still want to?). Maybe the time for that book has passed, in which case, let it go!

2 Quick note: some people love poly-reading in the same genre, and that’s okay! Do that! But if you find you start piling up a lot of unfinished books (mystery novels, for example), look and see if you have too many that hit the same tone or style. Have you started several cozy mysteries recently? Trying to tackle two separate police procedurals, while also juggling a fistful of classic noir? Diversifying the mood and style of the genre books you’re reading may help avoid the pileup.

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Friday Update: Like a Factory

Sometimes, you just have one of those weeks when things go smoothly. I know! It sounds insane. But this was one of those weeks.

The baby napped beautifully every day. The weather held-out so we could take his “go-to-sleep” walk, and it wasn’t brutally cold. I exercised every day. And I wrote STUPID amounts of words.

I say STUPID, because although the words flowed beautifully and I hit 2k on Wednesday (whaaaa-?!), I hit 2k while trying to write a shorter-ish story. Oops. So it’s now way too long for the anthology call I was considering. But, I love the words, which just makes it a longer story than what I was expecting. It happens. (A reminder that word count alone is a tricky indicator of “productivity”!)

Accomplished This Week:

All told, I wrote 6,600 words this week, a little over 2k on the novel, and the rest on a mix of short fiction. Deciding to split my weeks (work on the novel until I hit 2k, then switch to short fiction) looks like it’s going to work out well. This way, I can keep making steady progress on the book, but not lose practice on writing short fiction (which I love so much!). 

And I did finish that short story (even if it’s way too long), so that’s one new rough draft done! I LIKE the story. It’s kind of what I hoped it would be, despite it’s flaws, so although I probably won’t be able to submit it to where I thought I wanted to, it may make for a nice piece some other time.

I have a bit of catch-up to do on the novel over the next couple weeks, as I cut out a bunch of a second POV I ended up not needing, but I’m confident I’m headed in the right direction at long last. My head is still getting back into gear on short work (for some reason, it’s much, much harder to piecemeal work on short stuff, and much easier to go long), so that’s been a bit frustrating. I’d really like to get some new work out soon, since I’m almost out of pieces to submit! (It’s a good thing.)

Oh! And I got The Power Broker on Audible, so now I can listen to it at night in bed! Finally, a workable way to read it. 

Things Inspiring Me This Week:

This week has been all about collecting new books to read. With figuring out how to progress through The Power Broker, and with Goldbug going to bed fairly well most nights, I feel like I’m taking the e-brake off my reading time. Still not getting in as much as I’d like, but if I can keep up finishing four books a month, I’ll do all right. 

I also started reading Brain Jar Press’ latest chapbook on writing, From Baby Brain to Writer Brain by Tansy Rayner Roberts. It’s fascinating, it’s made me laugh in that “it’s too real!” kind of way, and I’m quite enjoying it. It illuminates the problems all writer-mother/primary-parents have when trying to balance kids and art, and–as a side-benefit–has given my internal tapes a nice workout on not comparing myself to other (vastly more) successful mother-writers. 

I will say—I was talking to my mother about this the other day—I think I’ve come a huge way, emotionally, in the last three years. I feel much more grounded, much more confident, and far less terrified of failure. The toxic perfectionism of my youth has well and properly died, and that has helped my process more than anything this year. I actually feel like a professional, far more than I ever did before, and it’s not a feeling that’s faded away over the past few years. It’s here to stay. And can I say, I’m immensely relieved and so much happier (and more productive) because of it?

Plan for Next Week:

This weekend, I’m going to decide what scenes I’m writing on the book next week. It seems helpful to do that thinking separately—helps me launch into the words on Monday. I’ll also probably be re-reading the short story I’m trying to edit and get back into its mindset, since it’s been a while since I worked on it, and this week’s work on it felt like driving without headlights. So 2k on the book, and 500/day (or equivalent editing time) on the short story. 

Hope your week has been smoother than last week, but if it hasn’t, hang in there! The days are starting to get longer here in New England, and the sun has finally decided to shine on all that blinding snow. I have to say: as much as snow can be a pain in the butt sometimes, I love snowy winters more than rainy ones. Snowy winters have sunny days that radiate light like you’re living in a mirror, and boy, does my mental health need that brightness sometimes!

Hang in, and hang on, folks! 

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Notes from a Poly-Reader: FEBRUARY 2021

Phew! Can you believe it’s already February?! At the end of last year, I decided I was going to try to read 50 books in 2021, which means I have to hit 4 books every month to even come close. I’ve managed that many before (and someday, hours willing!, I’ll read a heck of a lot more!), but it still requires a lot of focus to get done with wee-ones underfoot. This month, I did hit four books finished (The Color of Magic, Atomic Habits, The White Mountains, and You are Not Your Writing), but I’m going to have to really buckle down in February. I’ve also started some new books in January, and I’m a little ways into a few of them (thank goodness), so I’m not starting a bunch of barely opened books this week.

Currently Reading:

Notes:

Story Engineering – The WRITE YOUR NOVEL course I’m starting in March had this on its recommended reading list, and YOU GUYS. If you can get past Brooks’ cranky defensiveness about pantsing (he’s clearly had a lot of arguments about planning vs. pantsing during his workshops), WOW. I mean, so much of it is stuff I’ve read elsewhere in some part, but never have the requirements of a good story been so clearly spelled out and quantified. It’s really helped me to see both where my writing strengths are (things I’ve been doing unconsciously for years, but never understood), and what my writing weaknesses are (things I’ve struggled with consciously without any grasp on whatsoever and despairing of ever “getting”). I’m so excited to try some of this methodology, mixing it in with a little summary drafting and a touch more prep-thought on stories prior to writing. It links up very well with some of the editing books I’ve read, and I think maybe–just maybe–I’ve got a bead on how to improve in some key storytelling areas that I have been battling with for years. Hope springs eternal, right? But hope I have! Looking forward to applying some of these lessons in my next project.

Gideon the Ninth – I’m about four chapters into this, and I’m very much enjoying it. The world-building is insane, and very unique. Gideon and Harrowhawk are both characters I definitely want to know more about, and the sense of place is fantastic. The one, itty-bitty little complaint I have–and it’s super minor, and may just be me right now because I’m neck-deep in writing theory–is that sometimes (sometimes) it feels a little…writer-y? Constructed? Like, I become aware of the author pulling the strings and making up this world and the characters. There are just times the story feels so dense (dense = intensely detailed, not dense = stupid), that it’s hard to get into the flow of the story, you know? I dunno, it’s hard to describe. I want to just be completely swept away, but at times I feel like I’m clawing my way upstream to stay submerged in the story. Like I said, I’m not sure that’d hit everyone, and I’m not even sure if it’d hit me at a different point in time the same way, so I’m not giving the complaint much weight at this point. Overall, I’m blown away, so I’m looking forward to digging into it more.

Designology – I’ve gotten a bit stuck on this one. I was so excited to start it, and it didn’t disappoint, I just… I probably slipped out of the prime moment for it (I’m not actively trying to design our front-room like I was when I picked it up initially). But it’s probably just an issue of needing to devote some time to it. It’s a straight-forward read, so once I get rolling again, it should be an easy one to finish.

The Power Broker – I….haven’t made any progress on this. But it’s not for lack of interest! It’s because of physical challenge. It’s HUGE. You guys, it’s like five pounds and soft-cover, and it’s almost impossible to prop-up in any manner to read sideways like I do in bed, and it’s impossible to hold single-handedly, and it’s impossible to LIFT from any weird angle I may get stuck in when Goldbug falls asleep on me, assuming I had anywhere I could PUT it on my lap that wouldn’t wake him up from the weight, which means–IN SHORT–I haven’t touched this book in a while. I’ve been contemplating getting it as an ebook, which in theory I could read on my phone buuuuuuuut… I dunno. I wish I had more time to do audiobooks, because this would be a great one, I feel. Maybe I could get it on audiobook and listen to it before bed? Hmmm…. the idea has merit…

The City of Gold and Lead – Just started this one with B-Bug (at his request!!! AHHHHH! I’ve got him hooked on John Christopher! WEE!), and it’s all good fun. Christopher’s style is very easy to read aloud, and he’s got some great hard sci-fi feels about his work that I feel like are a great primer for other SF writers B-Bug may like later on. I mean, who doesn’t love evil Tripod robots?

Gardening Without Work – Ruth Stout may be my new best friend, even though she died five years before I was born, BUT I DON’T CARE. We’re kindred spirits! I’ve always loved her brother’s writing (author the Nero Wolfe mystery series, Rex Stout), but she’s so lively and snarky as hell and just…wow. I wish I could have met her in real life, because if she was anything like her writing, she’d have been an absolute hoot. Really enjoying her advice on gardening, as myself an indolent gardener and avid vegetable lover, and I’m hoping to put a lot of her advice to work this spring when Mom and I set up our own garden. But even if you don’t garden, you should probably read this, because Ruth Stout is HILARIOUS.

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Boy, I don’t think Nerve by Dick Francis even lingered on my list long enough to appear on my “currently reading” list. I picked it up earlier this month and blazed through it. It was a wonderful study in plot structure–both in great ways and bad ways, but I quite enjoy Francis’ work. I’ve got a couple others, but I think I’ll read something else for a bit, then cycle back around for another one.

I also really need to start SAGA: Volume 3, which I got for Christmas, but which I haven’t had a chance to crack open yet. (Same issue as The Power Broker: huge book-size and not enough hands/uninterrupted reading time.)

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Friday Update: Shifting Targets and the First Sale of 2021!

This week has been all about adjusting my expectations of available work time. Last weekend, I was determined: I would spend at least two hours on Sunday banging out a short story draft that has been languishing in my “to-do” pile for months. But when Sunday came around, it quickly became clear that 1) with everybody else home from work, opportunities to socialize which don’t crop up during the week were too tempting, 2) I need more than a couple of hours to make short fiction progress, and 3) there are about 10,000 other things I need to do on the weekends when I have kid-help in the form of available other adults (like, you know, laundry. Or taking a shower). Not things I can just push off indefinitely, either, but things that get piled up during the week because I don’t have time or opportunity to do them, in part because I do a great job using my available time during the week for writing. But eventually, the hammer has to come down, and household tasks do need to be done, and it’s a lot easier to do that on the weekends when I’ve got some extra help.

Also, I enjoy socializing with adults! During the week, I get a bit of this in the AM before my mother heads in to work, but otherwise, my days are pretty kid-centric, and it’s nice on the weekends to be able to talk about things other than LEGO, the LEGO game we have on our Switch, or…you know…farts. Because I live in a house of boys. 30% LEGO talk; 70% farts.

In addition to those two realizations, I also recognized pretty quickly while looking at the amount of work in my short fiction “to-do” pile that a couple hours here and there (even if I could guarantee focus and lack of interruptions) is just never going to cut it. Once-a-week work on short pieces isn’t enough to keep them accessible in my head, which means it takes time to even get ramped up on them before I can start working on them, and there goes the efficiency of that work slot on the weekends.

No, looking at this past weekend, I realized I cannot expect to work on writing over the weekend except on the very rare occasions when I need to get edits back to people or classwork submitted. And instead of feeling guilty all the time for not maximizing every single free hour of my days, and instead of cutting lose a Snoopy-esque wail of despair that I’ll just never, never, never have time to work on short fiction if I ever want to write books (or at least, not until the kiddos are big enough to BOTH be in school, which is some years off yet), I’ve made a decision: I’m going to have to split my weeks.

I need to write at least 2k/week on the novel to keep on track with its progress to meet classwork expectations (that’s essentially 500/day, though I more typically hit 750-1500 on any given day, meaning I tend to pump out closer to 4-5k/week). That means, in theory, I hit my required word count on the book by the end of Tuesday or Wednesday (if I’m having an off-week, or naps are scattered). If I didn’t just push forward on the book for the rest of the week, which is what I have been doing, that would give me two to three days of easily an hour to an hour and a half to focus entirely on short work. It’d be more than the two hour slot on the weekend, it’d keep the current short story WIP more front-of-mind than it currently is which (hopefully) means less ramp-up time those days since I’ll be anticipating working on it, and it’s REGULAR.

And that’s really what I want: regular, dependable short fiction time. Because I love writing short fiction. I’m not nearly as good at it as I’d like to be, but I’m getting there, and I don’t want to backslide too much. I WANT to write both books and short stories, which means I have to find a way to fit them both in consistently, so this seems like a reasonable option. We’ll try it, and see if it works. I’ve thought in the past of splitting my days–working on 200 words of short fiction, and then picking up the novel work–but in truth, my brain rarely cooperates with me switching mid-stride like that, and I’m always loathe to stop working on something if it’s working, which means the novel would more likely suffer from “brainwaves” happening on short stories. And this segmenting of my week into long-form/short-form may actually help the novel writing in that it’ll give me more time to percolate and think about how I want to tackle upcoming scenes (as speed isn’t always my friend when I haven’t had enough time to think about what I’m trying to accomplish).

Also, setting daily writing goals–not word count, but specific targets, like “today, I want to write the scene where Cordelia meets her secret step-uncle for the first time and he freaks her out.”–really helps, I’ve found. In the past two days alone since starting that habit again, I’ve been so much more focused in my writing sessions, I’ve actually knocked out 3,300 words in two days. That’s NUTS. And what’s more: they feel like better scenes!

In the fantastic news department, I recently found out I sold my weird short story, “Candyland” (where-to, not yet disclosable)! Very excited about this one finding a good home! This will be my first official sale of 2021, and also a bit of a driver to write and polish up some new fiction, because I’ve only got a couple still circulating!

And “More than Instinct” came out in Daily Science Fiction on Wednesday! Hooray! Very excited about that weird story, too. So short, but quite close to my heart.

And that’s it for this week! I’ve got to get up my coursework submission, but otherwise, my goal is to have a pleasant weekend with the fam, no productivity guilt invited! Have a great one and stay safe and healthy, all!

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NEW STORY at Daily Science Fiction TODAY!

My weird/dark SF story “More than Instinct” is now up on Daily Science Fiction! Read it here!

I’m so excited that this story found a good home. It comes from a very personal place, and helped me hash out a lot of bad old memories in the process of writing it. If you need more encouragement, here’s a direct quote from my mother (totally not biased!):

“That was intense!” — Maggie’s Mom

So see? You’ve definitely got to check it out now. (And it’s only about 700 words, so really, just a few paragraphs! It’s the shortest story I’ve ever written.)

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Friday Update: The Day that Wasn’t Friday

This was an insane writing week. I’ve really been holding myself to the 500/day on the novel, which (thanks to some stellar naps and possibly a shift towards more predictable one-a-day naps) ended up almost always hitting closer to 1k/day, but I also had fun writing a side “just for fun” project idea one day, which kicked me up over 2k for the day (which is insane). I owe myself a shiny star sticker. (I need to get back into rewarding myself with stickers–they’re so fun and shiny and make me feel awesome!)

All told, I wrote almost 6k this week. SIX THOUSAND WORDS. And that “almost” may actually be “did,” because I forgot to record my word count Thursday, but I know I hit 500 that day, at least, so it defaults to 500 (for shame!)

It was a good week, habits-wise, though. There were several days when I just did. not. want. to.–whether for writing or exercising–and I still managed to get my crap done. At this point, I’m just trying for consistency, not excellency. (On Friday, I whined and whined and whined through my whole exercise regimen, but it GOT DONE.) I also finished a couple books (The Color of Magic, and The White Mountains with B-Bug), which means my nightly routine of getting Goldbug down to bed, and then reading after he’s asleep seems to be helping build up my available reading time. I also started reading Story Engineering by Larry Brooks, and while he’s occasionally somewhat bitter-sounding, there have been some wonderful insights into storytelling and what makes stories tick. Here’s hoping I can internalize some of these ideas and apply them to my WIP (and more usefully, to the next ones!).

Otherwise, life chugs on, slowly but surely, and deeper into the wilds of 2021. Andy’s due for his second vaccine this next week, so fingers crossed he doesn’t have too terrible of a reaction, because he’s still planning on working the next day. We’ll see how that goes!

Also, I found out that my dark flash story about the horrors of those first weeks of motherhood, “More than Instinct,” is going live on Daily Science Fiction on Wednesday (February 3rd), so I’m quite excited about that! Woohoo! I’ll post a link day-of, but I’m excited that it’s got a specific release date now.

Hang in there, and be extra kind to yourself! It’s not over yet, but there’s at least some movement in the right direction. :)

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Friday Update: It’s Updates All the Way Down

Happy Friday, everybody! It’s funny, even not bound to the 8-5 workday, I still get so excited for Friday. My schedule on the weekend literally doesn’t change–Goldbug still lives by his routine–and other than other people not working (aka more adult conversation), Saturday and Sunday are technically speaking no different from Tuesday or Thursday.

But I’m still conditioned to FEEL like it’s a weekend! XD What a mad, mad world.

Anyway, this week chugged along. I’ve been setting a goal of 500/day on the novel to keep up with course requirements, and most days that’s been doable. I’ve only had to do it twice on my phone (blech!) stuck under a snoozing baby because I’m pretty sure he’s toothing again (yay!) so naps have been tough and unpredictable. My thumb gets tired. But other than today, when I added 400 to my current short story WIP instead of the novel (I got 1k+ twice earlier in the week, so no time lost, and I hit a spot I need to think about a bit before progressing), I hit my goals. I’d love to find a way to fit more short story editing into the weeks, but that’s still eluding me so far. :/

But I’m officially signed up for the Write Your Novel course at AWC that starts in March! I’m so excited. I’ve been banging my head against a wall on the continuing development of this novel, so knowing that I’ll have an experienced mentor kind of guiding me through the process is exactly what I need right now. I don’t want to waste years more trying to muscle through blind, so here’s hoping it offers some clarity. All the courses I’ve taken from AWC so far have been incredibly helpful, filling in a lot of gaps in my writing toolkit. So I’m optimistic. It took some thinking (and some humility!) to choose the 12-month course rather than the 6-mo. Originally, I’d hoped to get this draft wrapped up as fast as possible, but with the inevitable complications of having a 1yo and amidst the pandemic, and after experiencing the workload for the Novel Writing Essentials course, I realized there was no way I’d keep up with the 6-month workload. I need all the time I can get. But hopefully a year from now I’ll have a fairly functional second/third draft of this thing that I can finally focus on fine-tuning (rather than applying another Sledgehammer Special…)

Finished two books this week: a reread of Atomic Habits by James Clear (soooo good), and You Are Not Your Writing by Angela Slatter (chock full of no-nonsense, don’t-be-precious mavensense (yes, I just made that up: n. A specialist’s version of common sense, garnered through years of hands-on experience.). This week we’re giving some focused time to The Color of Magic by the inimitable Sir Terry Pratchett, and The White Mountains by John Christopher (with B-Bug). I’m also tempted to reread The Accidental Creative by Todd Henry, but weeeeeee’lllll seeeeeee…

Stay safe! Stay healthy! And hugs all around!

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(Belated) Friday Update: Highs, Lows, and the Rise and Fall of Femmeputer

It was the best of weeks; it was the worst of weeks. Some of the highs came on days that seemed like they’d be the lows, and some of the lows came on days that seemed pre-destined to be highs.

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No-nap day, which I managed to muscle through and produce 340 words despite the fact that the baby didn’t sleep, the computer battery was dead, and I didn’t have access to any of the notes I needed. HIGH! Made me feel like a million bucks to get those words.

II

Baby napped for a dreamy two hours, and I not only got my exercise in, but also went through my assignment for the Novel Writing Essentials course I’m taking, buffing it up to a beautiful polish. THEN, femmeputer crapped out, deleted everything, and left me rage-screaming into a pillow. (Yes, I’m fully aware that that was immature. Yes, I realize it’s probably just evidence of pandemic-stress-buildup hitting that final straw. And, yes, I realize I did everything I tell my nearly 7yo not to do when he’s frustrated, so I am humbler today than I was yesterday.)

But, I *also* received Femmeputer 2.0 yesterday (sooooo shiny!), so perhaps Femmeputer 1.0 was simply trying to Harry and the Hendersons me: Go on! Get out of here! It’s been ten years! I don’t want to work for you anymore! I hate you! I’ll delete your stuff, you rotten writer! JUST GO! *sobs with love*

Anyway… I’m doing better now. I’ve got most of my documents for WIPs on the new computer, which is snappy and slick and not bogged down by bloatware and years of slo-mo videos. It’s a fresh start, and I’m looking forward to writing SO MANY BOOKS on this thing.

But the old Femmeputer served me well for years and years and years. She just couldn’t anymore, and I’ve forgiven her for her glitching out yesterday. Long Live Femmeputer!

Today I’ve had entirely too much caffeine and an incredibly intense game of Splendor (which if you haven’t played, holy crap, do!), and I’m looking forward to a slower pace. I’m going to try either today or tomorrow to get the Jules Verne story locked down, so we’ll see how that goes. At least this week I managed to write 3,980 words, so not too shabby, even with yesterday’s freakout. One day at a time, ammiright? XD